Circles

(In circles) Am I a lost case? Is this mess just a phase? I feel guilty I hate myself for hating myself I punish myself for hating myself It's going on and on and on and on Until I'm down On the ground Tears will change nothing But I still keep crying Every day and night and day Then I'm angry for being this way I am running in circles I can't find the way out Why do I keep hurting myself like this? Did I deserve it Or I'm just out of my mind What is it That I'm trying to find? I hate being stuck in this maze, yeah Soon I'll go crazy Keep your advice I don't need to hear it twice You know well It doesn't help Welcome to my huge mess My huge mess (Oh) (In circles) The guilt is just too much Dealing with it is annoying Sometimes I simply Have to ignore it It's boiling inside of me All of this misery Then when it overflows My whole life just blows up to the sky I am back at the start I am running in circles I can't find the way out Why do I keep hurting myself like this? Did I deserve it Or I'm just out of my mind What is it That I'm trying to find? I hate being stuck in this maze, yeah Soon I'll go crazy Keep your advice I don't need to hear it twice You know well It doesn't help Welcome to my huge mess I should take a break (And accept I'm just human) And humans can make mistakes Why do I feel I can't be like that? When no one ever taught me that And yet I still feel it's not Who I must be It's so draining The guilt is just too much I think I might throw up My body doesn't understand My soul is going numb So I'm just running Through the fire through the rain Maybe I'll be okay one day How's it possible Everytime I try to change it I magically appear Back at the beginning My head is spinning But I'm still running And the world keeps moving forward Everything gets me triggered It doesn't take too much And I'm still running I am running I am running in circles I am running I am running I am running in circles I am running I am running I am running in circles Keep your advice I don't need to hear it twice You know well It doesn't help Welcome to my huge mess