Without You

Dear diary I'm not crying anymore, which is great You know, I've been trying to write something different I am kinda sick of sad songs and all that shit I think I'm gonna try to write something a little bit more Angry My best friend said she saw you on the bus today You were with that curly-haired friend of yours It's been a while, I barely even noticed that it's May I spent my time wondering and being outdoors 'Cause sometimes my head's a little loud I left myself and got into the crowd I left myself between those pretty places When all I did was look for you in all the faces But every day's a little easier babe I know it is for you, for you Still, sometimes I can't help but wonder If I'm on your mind too And I can walk again on my own There's nothing I can't do Because now the truth hurts less than how it used to do Without you Without you I pretended I didn't mind when they asked me about you And I still have that letter that I never sent Does your mom know about me and what we used to do? I wonder if your sister asks about me now and then I hate that I don't hate you Even though you break me like you do Now I just can't remember The sound of your laugh at the park And little pieces of us start to fade, wish I knew That loving you would break my heart in two But every day's a little easier babe I know it is for you, for you Still, sometimes I can't help but wonder If I'm on your mind too And I can walk again on my own There's nothing I can't do Because now the truth hurts less than how it used to do Without you Without you I ignored the signs I ignored the lies I'd hide in my heart I ignored the way you said I love you Still couldn't stop you from leaving And I can't wait for you babe Time moved on, I stopped grieving For a person who never fought for me from the start For a person who never worried I'd break apart How I'm feeling? Well I don't really know how to answer to that Uh I don't know, I'm kind of in this phase where I realized that I'm actually really glad to be alone And not with him