i'm not fine

Intoxicated on my own Facetime wit my homie, serving work on the road Tryna make a way in this fast life Gettin cheese from the 818 to the 310 Put my whole life in this shit You don't even know the half, man I'd die for this shit Yeah I make it look sexy, but don't get it twisted man, it hurt like a bitch I'm not fine even though I say I'm fine I'm not fine even though I say I'm fine I'm not fine even when I say I'm fine I'm not fine even when I say I'm fine Yeah these scars cut deeper than I think (mmm) They come from places even deeper than I been (mmm) Stressin out over shit I can't control (light it up) Inhale my worries, breathe em out and let em go Standing in my own skin, but I'm not here In a room full of people, but they not here On my phone, in every single place, but my own Wondering where the hell did my mind go Wondering where the hell did the time go I swear these days it be movin like a criminal Hella pressure on myself, gotta let it go Tap into days in the kitchen wit my sister eating cereal I need somethin simpler, I need somethin to feel though Are my fears even real or do I just imagine them Will my words heal if I never get the fame Feel the pain of my family when I see my uncle drank Drowning in the bottle almost every single day I done seen it my whole life and it still make me feel a way See my family enable him and say that he's his own man Intoxicated on my own Facetime wit my homie, serving work on the road Tryna make a way in this fast life Gettin cheese from the 818 to the 310 Put my whole life in this shit You don't even know the half, man I'd die for this shit Yeah I make it look sexy, but don't get it twisted man, it hurt like a bitch I'm not fine even though I say I'm fine I'm not fine even though I say I'm fine I'm not fine even when I say I'm fine I'm not fine even when I say I'm fine I'm not fine even though I say I'm fine I'm not fine even though I say I'm fine I'm not fine even when I say I'm fine I'm not fine even when I say I'm fine