Hikikomortem

It's four AM Again, again My eyes feel so sore Humane, disdain The clocks' counting down to the hour where I feel if I have no real power Give them a round Applause! Applause! To the voice that's inside who sings this day-long "I want attention, I want affection I'm an ugly person I'm a sick aversion!" Always moving counter-clockwise Indefinitely, all the time Myself never stops mirroring I'll fall for it, screw everything Drawing nearer, nothings clearer Close the curtains, take the leap and fall, oh It's my own HIKIKOMORTEM tells me that I'll never win Getting close will get me hurt Cover me in all the dirt Feigning socials, black/white morals Fearing death and life itself, I'll fall, oh Invisible Collateral All the times I've tried so hard, was it really my best? Am I so used to feeling hurt, that I've become obsessed? I don't know how I feel inside All these things I've done will never be right I want out, of my own hellsight And I am blinded by a constant head plight So stop your whining! Don't think 'bout dying! You did this to you! I did this to you! Always moving counter-clockwise Indefinitely, all the time Myself never stops mirroring I'll fall for it, screw everything Drawing nearer, nothings clearer Close the curtains, take the leap and fall, oh It's my own HIKIKOMORTEM tells me that I'll never win Getting close will get me hurt Cover me in all the dirt Feigning socials, black/white morals Fearing death and life itself, I'll fall, oh- Yeah!