Healing

My thoughts are in a spiral And it's getting pretty dark Hand is on the trigger And it's aimed at my own heart But I didn't come this far To give up it all Expectations so high Nothings up to par Wish I could sleep And you could wake me up At the good part But I didn't come this far To sleep through it all Trying so hard But I can't shake the feeling Saying that I'm better But I've barely started healing Yeah I've been trying so hard But I can't shake the feeling Saying that I'm better But I've barely started healing How long is too long To hold on After they're gone Trying To be strong But I don't know how To move on Thoughts are in a spiral And it's getting pretty dark Hand is on the trigger And it's aimed at my own heart How long is too long To hold on After they're gone Trying To be strong But I don't know how To move on Trying so hard But I can't shake the feeling Saying that I'm better But I've barely started healing Even feeling better hurts Cause the pain makes me feel close To you Yeah even feeling better hurts Cause the pain makes me feel close To you