They Tell Me

They tell me it's in my head (When I feel like i'm dying inside) First insecure and now depressed (And the walls are caving in again) You gotta keep it strong on the outside (Can you hear me? Am I screaming?) Put my hood up so people can't get to me (I could leave but you won't be forgetting me) Tell myself that I don't wanna grow up Turn 18 but i don't feel like a grown up Left with a promise, man I wasn't to know this Wouldn't have known this, like i'm below this Every day it rains, and I stuggle to breathe Oh you wouldn't believe, every night is like Demons and ghouls, fucking all the rules Hope you'll keep it safe, 'cos this bed isn't safe it's like I'm gonna kill myself, and it's all your fault No matter what they say, you were always to blame And when you die I'll be waiting in hell To hurt you back, how my confidence lacks I miss cuddling up, and looking up at the stars Before you screwing me up, man take us back to the start Why did I give you my heart? You split my soul into parts Hold a light to my skin, burn me where to begin? I just woke up again I don't know, I'm sorry I don't know I'm sorry