69 Days

69 days till my lover decides whether he loves me more than his wife 68 cold and lonely nights of tossing turning wondering what he decides 67 ways I will react when he tells me he´s not going back 66 ways in which I differ from her 65 e-mails with nothing to declare 64 prayers it´s him on the phone 63 ways to meet when she´s gone 62 questions I hesitate to ask 61 lies to cover us up 60 good guesses how this is gonna end 59 rules I´m expected to bend 58 conversations leading nowhere 57 appointments without him there 55 ways he has caused me pain 54 reasons I´d do it again 53 attempts to end the whole affair ended after 50 seconds of us in his love chair 49 times he says no feelings for her 47 times they tell me they´re still a pair 44 new shoes and him alone to blame 37 years - and I still ain´t got my man 10 ultimatums I never follow through 9 self help books to understand you 8 other dates to get you out of my mind 7 fortune tellers with smiles so kindly 6 lonely weeks while you´re in therapy with her 5 denials to my nosy coworker 4 bidden thrills in our lunch-time break 3 friends to comfort me when my heart aches 2 points left to ponder When the countdown stops I wonder After all this waiting, after all I´ve done Will I become your new number 1 Or will you just be gone