Thin

1999 as mom came home I asked her "Mom, can I have a new pair of jeans?" She said yes and bought me A pair of flair blue jeans With colorful butterflies Embroidered all over it Excited I wore it But what I saw in the mirror Smashed and smothered me That was the moment when I first realized That I didn't look like the girls on tv Nobody told me But I knew that something Was wrong with me That I had to hide At night I asked myself to sleep How would it be If I were born thin Next time I went shopping Straight to the male section I bought myself a couple of XXL tees Which covered me almost until my knees I felt like my secret was safe again No one would ever know No one would ever know What I hid underneath How I was underneath Nobody told me But I knew that something Was wrong with me That I had to hide At night I asked myself to sleep If I were born thin You would have loved me I would have loved me It'd be fun But I just stood there Staring at the others Always wondering in my head How would it be If I were born thin How would it be