Escapism, Vices, Numbed

Ive been sitting here For way too damn long My brain feels numb At the mindlessness consumed As if I can Help myself To a means To a better end This is what I want to Be numbed to Feelingless I don't want To feel this way I don't want To think these things I just want To feel nothing Compared to This misery Nothing is Far more preferred I don't want To feel this way