Days Like This

I wake up, nine tons splitting my head Gotta run but I can't quite get out of bed Wish I was in the deep end of peaceful sleeping instead Or maybe I'd be better off dead, I mean I mean what I said Roll out the covers I get up and get dressed It's tougher when you never got no one to impress On other moons I suffer through and just do my best But at the moment, I ain't up for the test, shit Shake it off, put a brave face on I race to keep pace but I fall Pick myself up but I never get far I'm always running but I just can't escape these thoughts It cost me too much, and now I can't stop But I'm stuck, exhausted enough to drop But I'm afraid if I hesitate then I flop On my face I may never get up It's days like this I hope it never stays like this Malaise invades, shapes the ways I miss The simpler times I look fine but I'm limping inside Tightening my grip but I slip Like this I hate it when it rains like this When shades of grey paint names on my lips I'm thinking that I could swim fine but I sink in the tides Wish I never existed on days like this Spun dizzy as I dream of another me Too busy looking back for me to see what's in front of me It's funny, I run to another place I want to be But every step I take the past looks that much better to me I travel on with glass in my bloody feet but that's when I suddenly Collapse in a crumpled heap no one can see Patch it up but leak like a sieve, it seems sometimes It's not until you try to heal you realize the cut is deep Like a castle under siege I put up my shield but it's crumbling from the pummeling Try to cry for help, but somebody cut my vocal strings And honestly the only thing I want is sleep Please, wipe eyes on my sleeve I'm just tryna survive my disease Want to find life, retry mine, another timeline How can I fly if I can't breathe It's days like this I hope it never stays like this Malaise invades, shapes the ways I miss The simpler times I look fine but I'm limping inside Tightening my grip but I slip Like this I hate it when it rains like this When shades of grey paint names on my lips I'm thinking that I could swim fine but I sink in the tides Wish I never existed on days like this Blindfolded no control where I'm moving Hold the wheel like I know what I'm doing and hope the illusion Is bulletproof so no one sees through it But when I crash, who am I tryna fool, ain't no one that stupid Toting my crucifix coated with bruises My swollen limbs going limp but the load isn't moving It's only growing bigger over me looming, grip to hope never loosens The more I hold to it the sooner I lose it Prone to react, you're gonna go far, I don't believe that But I'm the only part holding me back But knowing there's a trap doesn't make it harmless or arm less fast Paint the target on my back Mark it on my neck, mark my words and drop the axe Break my heart, just promise me we'll drop the acts I can start to scratch in the dark for the shards of glass And learn how to patch the cracks It's days like this I hope it never stays like this Malaise invades, shapes the ways I miss The simpler times I look fine but I'm limping inside Tightening my grip but I slip Like this I hate it when it rains like this When shades of grey paint names on my lips I'm thinking that I could swim fine but I sink in the tides Wish I never existed on days like this