Pain is Life

This contraption we're trapped in is a wack sin Soon, hope it's collapsing not acting, no more Was out of this world now I'm back in All I'm asking is if you believe in something And find cracks in it, see light through it, then that's it Snap, click, now I'm reaching new heights, not back spinning Actually, basking in a fight for a fat minute Brought me new sight Not giving in to what's right or wrong No longer in the dark, strike the gong, sound the alarm, though the lights dim It's turned on in the storm, might feel warm, but to my psyche's harm The light's a bomb, that's mischief Like I could even like this life, of acting Despite its charm, that's why I'm writing more, quite sore With new insights, that crack religion Brew up delight, in spite of past missions Time to ignite my passion, blasting blasphemous captions Capping all who asking for cash, then I'm crashing Back into this, massively While remaining passive aggressive Step back off the ledge real quick That's the rhetoric not impressive, so I'm not messing with it Used to wanna jump, but that's irrelevant Now I wanna pump you up, till now, you had no evidence Still got no leverage, no benefit to discuss, or get defensive Been corrected, might as well settle this Back pedaling, legs jelly, but that's tentative Just putting caps on penmanship, to crafty sentences Speed past the trenches, I've been in with rap sentiments Act arrogant, though, I lack camera tricks I'll be a snack here for you, looking in the mirror Can you see me clearer yet Near to death, still fearing debt, on a pier, won't dare to bet Been here spiritually before, no fear is left Wish I was here to rest The party's over, over the bar, and I'm sober, new card to throw here In this game of life, pain is life, brain is hype And if I'm aiming right I write a good game then put the mic to shame tonight Unlike the GAM, the price of fame is lame, alright Keys to the righteous king are nice, the same alike Cost everything, stay tame and fight Never become the brains and take the stride Won't get electrified, unless you step aside, go on a messy ride Everything left behind, like pesticides and death Forget the rest of life, this new life just arrived Must be nice, now stuff a slice of it in you Cause it's gonna be nice, like a rough rider Back to the 90's, rap was grimy, acting slimy At least that's what I see When I look back to find me That's why when I rewind and look back I crack a smile, free and wild No longer a child inside, been piled up with files, nuts Stacked up for miles, what That's why I'm a glutton for punishment Remember big punisher, astonishment is what you get See I felt it right in front of ya Not in love with ya, but brother to brother I ball alongside ya, no thug life Now start recovery and find what's in ya, uncover ya Rescind, start smothering, every other thing that's not love for ya You can't make it in this rap game, even as advanced GAMboy Won't be put on the map, man The devil's controlling the plot Ain't that a sham, with God calling the shots I still end up slipping and falling a lot On my hands and knees, as I crawl to the rock Pray it's all gonna stop, walls keep closing in, it all turns to slop I know I'm chosen man, stirring the pot Unanswered prayers have me learning to box Wrong answers got me stirring up top, both ends of my fuse, burn till I pop Concerned I will lose, flop on my belly, while on the telly, nothing like Makaveli Though a star already heart is heavy Cause I've gone too far like Chevy, Chasing my dreams Now making memes like mean faces, I make on the scene Spur to the moment under a curse of devotion When the curtains are closing, get caught in the undertow Nervous in oceans, like I'm reversing the potion Like cures are in focus Doing a service for those who learn in slow motion By our actions, they'll know our focus