Soul Pain

Hop up on these and sing my pain away So much that you feel my heart beat through those 808's Been through so much pain and trauma never healed from it I've been out here fighting demons and they still coming Lost some homies to the streets I thought would never leave Only time I feel okay is off that ecstasy I fell in love and let a female get the best of me She turned around and use my heart and love as weaponry I know I've been taking these drugs to just cope with all my bad habits Swear that my soul ain't been same since I lost grand daddy I've tried my best to be better but I'm bad at it Knowing if he saw what Ive become he would be mad at me I gave my all to all my brothers no one ever did And when I needed them the most they ass was never there I did my time in jail alone but I was never scared it only showed me that day ones never really cared Can't nothing take this pain away It's been hard to tame my hate Tried to sleep it off but still I woke up felt the same today Thinking I got soft I just been quiet better know your place Secluded in my mental in the darkness and there's no escape I almost lost my will to fight Contemplating every night for a reason to keep my faith not to give up take my life Everything was going wrong felt like nothing going right when that pressure got too great I found comfort in my pipe Bitch it's on sight Lately been in my feelings couldn't eat or sleep or write Dealing with this depression I've been coping through this mic Niggas in disguises tryna follow trend and hype Stay true to myself can't ever switch I'm not type I blame myself because I've been right here before Tryna heal this pain and all this hurt up in my soul I blame myself because I've been right here before Tryna heal this pain and all this hurt up in my soul I'm staying strong holding on Staying strong barley holding on Staying strong barley holding on Staying strong barley holding on Still I keep a keep lil faith Haven't had a lot of faith I've been praying something change Before I give up it's too late Still I keep a keep lil faith Haven't had a lot of faith I've been praying something change Before I give and it's too late I know I've been taking these drugs to just cope with all my bad habits Swear that my soul ain't been same since I lost grand daddy I've tried my best to be better but I'm bad at it Knowing if he saw what Ive become he would be mad at me I blame myself because I've been right here before Tryna heal this pain and all this hurt up in my soul I blame myself because I've been right here before Tryna heal this pain and all this hurt up in my soul