Dying to Live

So who's Ganja Doll So who's Ganja Doll I mean I'm an artist A human being A survivor So what's, what's your message So what's your message Truth be told I don't want to be the one To come out here and say I've got some kind of message I'm trying to deliver I just want people to interpret My shit for How they interpre it If my shit hits you Then it was meant to hit you Now let me hit you with this Now I'm not tryna say I'm Suicidal But this survival shit Has got me on the low I ain't the one to do things best When things are not in my Control That's why when life gets Rough I turn the music up and bust a Flow Now I'm not tryna say I'm Suicidal But this survival shit has got Me under stress I ain't the one who's got my Shit together No my life's a mess I got problems in my mind That I'm not ready to address And I got people who would Miss me when I'm gone It's sad to say that Sometimes even they Can't keep me hanging on I wonder what they'd say Over my grave Would it have been enough To change my mind And make me stay If I was buried Deep inside the earth Would you put a different Meaning on somebody's worth They say it's not that bad You're only twenty-two But age is just a number Start counting the traumas I've been through I've been dying to live And to the ones Who thought I was nothing I turned around And bossed it up And became something I switched it up And took your hate And built up strength You hoes cannot compare Not even by a tenth To those Who think they got The best of me I'm rising from the ashes Phoenix coming out of me I'm not the one To throw my hands up And surrender I'ma fight the battle Give these niggas Something to remember So would you say you're Suicidal I don't want to say I'm suicidal I just It's not that I want to die I just don't want to live The way I've been living either Man you know Like it's fucked up out here So Why did you choose The hustle you chose Isn't that something That's gonna make That shit worse It's not about that It's about It's about feeling like I can be in control finally When I've been out of control My whole life You know what I mean It's about seizing that one thing I've never been able to take And that's literally All I want Now I'm not tryna say I'm Suicidal But this survival shit Has got me on the edge I'm in the streets Working a hustle I'm just tryna get ahead But at the end of some nights I don't got nowhere To go to bed Now I'm not tryna say I'm Suicidal But this survival shit Has got me in my feels It isn't right That I be struggling Just to afford Dollar meals I be walking past these stores So hungry Pride to be to steal And all these people Try to claim They have my back But they just run away When my life train Starts running of the tracks Be coming back around When they start falling short Ain't never stood for me But now they need support I ain't got no blood out there Who gives a damn These people from the streets Who f*ck with me Are now my fam And after seeing Just how foul own blood can be I keep the people Who can feel my situation Next to me We all dying to live And to the ones Who thought I was nothing I turned around And bossed it up And became something I switched it up And took your hate And built up strength You hoes cannot compare Not even by a tenth To those Who think they got The best of me I'm rising from the ashes Phoenix coming out of me I'm not the one To throw my hands up And surrender I'ma fight the battle Give these niggas Something to remember What's your end goal What's your final plan Where, where you tryna get With this I just wanna feel Like I'm genuine I wanna better myself It's about Me becoming Who I wanted to be Not being molded Into how everyone Has wanted me to be My whole life It's all about Literally being a renegade Now giving a f*ck What anybody says Not giving a shit What anybody thinks Walking by and knowing That I've got it Regardless of Whether you can give it to me Or not And that's what I needed