Your Martyr!

You don't know how I feel like a hamster on a wheel Running circles round and round never make up any ground Trapped here so surreal I don't know how to deal the picture so clear just an illusion now I fear I'm stuck here in a void I've become so paranoid is it me is this real is that the needle I can feel pierce my skin oh so cold now my heart begins to slow breathe in close my eyes middle fingers to the sky Thunder deafens me now and the voices start to chatter Rain falls with no mercy drowning out all the things that matters Clouds become so dark now making shadows even darker When the storm clouds fade out I will never be your martyr There I stand killing time chasing demons in my mind This nightmare is now clear the crystal ball has cracked it's sphere No scenes to predict one last time now this is it Take all I have endured this is a sickness with no cure Face to face with my fears devils work must disappear Bruises scars broken bones the pain of feeling so alone Emotions once held high empty feelings don't say why Deep breath in close my eyes middle finger to the sky Thunder deafens me now and the voices start to chatter Rain falls with no mercy drowning out all the things that matters Clouds become so dark now making shadows even darker When the storm clouds fade out I will never be your martyr you will never have your martyr!