Habit

I’ll tell myself again That I feel safe within my skin Love the person that I’ve been When I know that it’s a myth I’ll tell myself again That I’ll be better off alone Than seeking refuge in someone Who only ever did me harm It’s hard to admit that I’ve never felt complete That I’ve been sinking in my sheets In terror of myself when I’m feeling nothing If I am worthwhile where on earth’s my company? I let self doubt wash over me With false belief that I could be worth something I guess I’m better off alone In the great unknown I’ll tell myself again That I feel safe within my skin Love the person that I’ve been When I know that it’s a myth I’ll tell myself again That I’ll be better off alone Than seeking refuge in someone Who only ever did me harm When I am, conflicted When I am, addicted (I’m addicted to self doubt) I’m a creature of habit Whenever I try My personal anguish puts me on the line I always seem to somehow lose my grip I succumb to the panic and tend to confine The worst of my demons deep within my mind There’s comfort in the quiet emptiness I just need to find purpose When push comes to shove I know that my illness will tear me apart As I’ve never had the strength to seek self help I’ll tell myself again That I feel safe within my skin Love the person that I’ve been When I know that it’s a myth I’ll tell myself again That I’ll be better off alone Than seeking refuge in someone Who only ever did me harm When I am, conflicted When I am, addicted