The Fear

Gardena I put on my worst for you, to see if you can take it Put my heart in reverse for you, because I know you hate it I spend my nights clenching my teeth With my tongue in my cheek and my fears on repeat Tossing and turning I won't fall asleep Take my pills, close my eyes, they still roam underneath The fear, so real, so much easier to feel I get lost in it all the time Just please don't leave, I swear this isn't me I just get lost in it all the time I put on my worst for you, to see if you can take it Put my heart in reverse for you, because I know you hate it Alone in my room and I let my life drip I hold my whole world at the tip of a pen But I put it aside and try hard to forget That I'm drowning with all of the lust and the So I throw out my mind to stay numb in the day And I rest in the darkness of night where I lay I spend my nights clenching my teeth With my tongue in my cheek and my fears on repeat The fear, so real, so much easier to feel I get lost in it all the time Just please don't leave, I swear this isn't me I just get lost in it all the time The fear, so real, so much easier to feel I get lost in it all the time Just please don't leave, I swear this isn't me I just get lost in it all the time The fear, so real, so much easier to feel I get lost in it all the time Just please don't leave, I swear this isn't me I just get lost in it all the time The fear, so real I get lost in it all the time