IN MEMORY OF

Left me standin' here alone again Contemplatin' the shake up, oh long it's been Since I felt at home in here or let alone my skin And you're supposed to the one that's been my closest friend Who the hell am I talkin to Should've been center of attention But got lost in ruse There's so many things around me So much left to do There ain't time to breathe I can't make time for you I can't make time for me But spend it all by my lonely I keep my hands busy working on whatever's in front of me Sometimes I can't think And every answers in front of me My mind just wants to race And all I win is a broken me Damn Day dreams of played scenes In my mind They seem to take me Where I hide Take me away No I don't mind Bring peace at least What I won't find I need to face me So I fight Maybe it's just me That I fight Killed me I guess it had to be done To be the spirit that I am And live in memory of To the one I said I'd wait here for you I no longer can just hang around and wait here for you I can't Used to put in work and want the wodi You won't catch up on me Rather leave me lonely God damn To the one I know that's waiting for me Do what ever makes you happy, don't be waiting on me My plan Is the same, I know the day will come and I will catch up on you I am workin' on it I am Different man now I tend to stand out Do I deserve it Went from man down To want no hand out And it's workin I ain't nervous But my confidence Won't come from no chain I ain't perfect I just rock my shit Like it ain't no thing Pen chirpin' Write my wins And my survival, my pain Wont go to church 'Cause I know god Is right here with me today I medicate a better way And meditate when I wanna I still pour little drink And ain't afraid of the ganja I just operate different I give it all that I have You were sleepin' through the night I'm screenin' though my note pad On the surface I ain't what you heard But really I'm that Chase my purpose but my first is With me Callin' me Dad Taught me patients I still really hate to wait but But it's the process of the paintin' Only artist get to savor I'm the finished product waitin What happens when I'm completed I guess I'll be upgraded Till my paint is depleted Damn Day dreams of played scenes In my mind They seem to place me Where I strive Take me away No I don't mind Bring peace to beasts Give me all drive I need to face me So I fight Take heed, it's all me I take flight Killed me I guess it had to be done To be the spirit that I am And live in memory of To the one I said I'd wait here for you I no longer can just hang around and wait here for you I can't Used to put in work and want the wodi You won't catch up on me Rather leave me lonely God damn To the one I know that's waiting for me Do what ever makes you happy, don't be waiting on me My plan Is the same, I know the day will come and I will catch up on you I am workin' on it I am