Better or Worse

For better or worse I put my life in the music So I put that first They want me to smile, amusing I think that i'm cursed Abusing my limits Keep pushing myself Cause I know it's gone work I just spent two thousand on pajamas For vacations in Bahamas, on my mama Ain't no drama when you eating like a llama No McDonalds, shrimp and lobster Benihanas for mañana She gone bust it like piñatas I'm the first thing that she thought of Hit the bank go make deposits We young independent bosses We ain't chalking up no losses Only thing our fathers taught us Keep it moving Don't got time to hesitate That's how the demons move in Only time to concentrate on me That's how i'm doing Yeah But dreams are not always reality Only trust niggas as far as you throw em Surprising they ain't looking out for me Some of them doubted me Some of them saw what I had and was mad at me Some of them I tried to paint in the picture But turns out it wasn't a masterpiece This shit a tragedy Niggas finessed out my pockets They want me to fail I kept it real They fed me lies want me dead or in jail They keep on saying the real gone prevail But these niggas on top I don't know how to feel Lately I feel like the battle uphill And i'm tumbling down Something like Jack n Jill They want convince me it's all in a pill Take anti-depressants lil nigga and chill They want me medicated It's all fabricated But i'm educated I ain't graduated So I gotta make it Ain't got time to fake it If I see my shot then imma have to take it It don't matter any nigga barricade it I'm still running through And you can bet I break it nigga Whoa Get out the way Can't pay attention with minimum wage Think for yourself don't get stuck in a cage Told you don't listen when they say behave My brothers are dying so we gotta rage Write your own history take back the page Hoping we only get better with age Cause it'll take time ain't gone happen today Yeah For better or worse I put my life in the music So I put that first They want me to smile, amusing I think that i'm cursed Abusing my limits Keep pushing myself Cause I know this gone work I done spent two thousand on false promises And now they hanging onto it They politicking Like them bitch ass niggas in the offices I promise this Bro when I get my money right i'm offing kids They options is Apologize or not I feel like mopping shit Hometown hero, i'll clean the block up shit Robert DeNiro i'm painting houses nigga Look me up on Angie's List Lately I been acting first without assessing damages Need bandages, i'm bleeding out My demons been creeping out This shit what i'm speaking bout Tried to find a different route But niggas kept on closing doors Think now i'm locked out for sure I can't fight it anymore That shit hit me in my core Don't know what they took me for Now it's time to even scores Cause there ain't no rich or die trying I'll die trying to get richer Ain't no risk in low flying High flyers get the picture Split the pot then gut the swisher Life's a bitch i'm gonna miss her This my last night on Earth Wish I could see my mom and kiss her Cause these niggas tryna take me out Wait me out They posted at my house they tryna stake me out Won't break me down Not ever nigga Won't go i'm too clever They don't like it, whatever Even if I make it out alive Still won't do better nigga For better or worse I put my life in the music So I put that first They want me to smile, amusing I think that i'm cursed Abusing my limits Keep pushing myself Cause I know this gone work