Life's Standards

I've lived long enough to know that shit is hard I've been through my portion, I got my scars We all been hurt, just in different parts I think that's the reason why we live with guard And I wanna make it far but don't know where to start Sometimes I think about the past It make it hard move pass with all the regrets that I have Sometimes I just sit back and laugh The first time I felt defeat Didn't know which way to go so I fell to my knees I was a lost soul in my pain, so I prayed to God for guidance He told me he always be beside me I gotta move in silence God got the wheel, I'm just riding I'm flying on the plane, he the pilot He the teacher, I'm the student So everyday I gotta do my assignments Life is about patience and timing Are you living through reality, or fable ? Look at your life and what you bring to the table ? I had to put my pride aside I had to ask help As you get older, you see can't do it all yourself Prepare yourself mentally, life is hard when you unable So stop being ungrateful, you lucky you ain't disabled I ask myself mane what's worse than this I ain't scared of death, I've been poor I heard my mama cry for help at the top of her lungs I've seen people who I grew up with died, by violence with guns So much pain build inside, I'm just happy I'm here I'm more focus on myself, now my vision is clear I'm getting closer to the edge, I might jump that cliff Sometimes you gotta test your faith, I use to have that fear This the last decade, I see life standards I got this shit handled, I promise