Scared

Every morning when I woke up Every night I tried to cry myself to sleep Screaming that I'm sorry When every effort makes the cut more deep Now I sit in waiting Trying to take these baby steps Still fearful that you hate me But I try to put the blame to rest I tried so hard to tell myself That nothing was your fault I said I'm scared That I'll hurt you like your mother And you'll leave me like a father skipping town And you dared To say, "my love I trust you" Even when I knew I couldn't trust myself But I was right I was right And I drew blood And every night I would write My sorry excuses Hoping that you would say it's alright Now every time you text me And I say that I might be scared to death You tell me that there's no need But I never know what could be next When every time I open my mouth My words get ahead of me I said I'm scared That I'll hurt you like your mother And you'll leave me like a father skipping town And you dared To say, "my love I trust you" Even when I knew I couldn't trust myself But I was right I was right And I drew blood And every night I would write My sorry excuses Hoping that you would say it's alright Am I just another of your big mistakes? Am I just a promise I begged you to break? If that's how you know me I don't want you to know me I wish you would say you hate me for what I've done I said I'm scared That I'll hurt you like your mother And you'll leave me like a father skipping town And you dared To say, "my love I trust you" Even when I knew I couldn't trust myself But I was right I was right And I drew blood And every night I would write My sorry excuses Hoping that you would say it's alright