Stagnant

I can see my fingerprints shift quick Bite my lip cut my skin I can't help but feel sick Jam my fingers into my eyes I just what wanna know what it feels like to die Arms numb, head low, I feel my skin writhing I got this shit down to a science Always relapse, no point in fighting Crawling back to constant self violence I'm hiding from my friends afraid they all hate me Just speak your mind do not fake please berate me Trust nothing that I say tell me I'm crazy Disassociate so you call me lazy Head under the water wash my breath away Shutting down I no longer need my brain Tell my family I'm sorry, know I tried to stay I don't want to wake I can't take the strain Don't lose sleep if I don't wake up Don't lose sleep if I don't wake up Don't lose sleep if I don't wake up If I don't if I don't if I don't if I don't Don't lose sleep if I don't wake up Don't lose sleep if I don't wake up Don't lose sleep if I don't wake up If I don't if I don't if I don't if I don't Clawed my way from out under the dirt Won't fall again I'm far too low the drop won't even hurt Wont pick up the phone beside my bed but it gets worse The pills are kicking in I'm tripping deep into a hearse There's a dagger in my side The gash is getting deeper its as long as it is wide I don't think I can survive I'm slipping through the ether there is nowhere left to hide Vision fading away Blood loss my face turning grey Here be my resting place Lay my body to waste Don't lose sleep if I don't wake up Don't lose sleep if I don't wake up Don't lose sleep if I don't wake up If I don't if I don't if I don't if I don't Don't lose sleep if I don't wake up Don't lose sleep if I don't wake up Don't lose sleep if I don't wake up If I don't if I don't if I don't if I don't