Made To Think

You're worthless Flipping page to page Find a verse Proving it to me That I'm the worst Lacking sage It turn to rage Submerse immersion Perverse diversion Purpose conversion Agree that's a crime to be an addict Fleeting thoughts in my mind This shit is tragic Hide and fighting it With a smile while I'm laughing Motherfucker so depressed I run straight into traffic 'Cause f*ck it I'm manic Attacking is panic They say it satanic I'm like goddamnit I vanish Houdini-type magic Coming straight out the jacket Like the way they think I'm crazy Fronting perfectionism Fucking hell it fucking fazed me Now I'm lost and a mess Caution obsessed Taught in the chest Caught in the west Not in the nest Not at my best Starburst in bed Trees in my head Too sweet to forget Goddamn it's deranged Hatred essential I've lived the day-to-day Yeah it's truly evidential MAGA-wearing fascists claim our recent past was presedential Nagging Karens vax-less With shame, guilt, and blame It's quintessential And that be the game That's breaking my brain The one with the blame Them facts they done wane It's whack and depraved Vernacular changed Spectacular cage My soul rearranged I can't say to God that I'm worth it I cant say I'll show up to service Subliminal messaging A clinical exorcist I've done made a mess of this Or that's what I'm made to think I cant say to God that I'm worth it I cant say I'll show up to service Subliminal messaging A clinical exorcist I've done made a mess of this Or that's what I'm made to think Or that's what I'm made to feel Or that's what I'm made to see Institutional hypocrisy While they claim that they saving me Erasing me, they razing me While raising me The fee of believing, the fee of receiving The fee is deceiving The fee is confusion of what is right to feel The fee is delusion in my head at night Its real The fee's a contusion in my gut No fight, conceal The righteous seal I might just heal Still too surreal Been feeling broken and hopeless Seen going tokeless and copeless Anticlimactic, memories traumatic Poems potent provoking emotions Flows like the ocean No joking, not token Rowing then rolling Smoking then flowing Posing in moments Exposing some omens Done choking opponents Done hit the quotient A poet I'm hoping To not be unspoken Fact, I be growing Gifted and focused Flow vocal and frozen Composing devotion Poison opposing I can't say to God that I'm worth it I cant say I'll show up to service Subliminal messaging A clinical exorcist I've done made a mess of this Or that's what I'm made to think I cant say to God that I'm worth it I cant say I'll show up to service Subliminal messaging A clinical exorcist I've done made a mess of this Or that's what I'm made to think My whole damn life I seen a monster in the mirror Evil twin I could figure I see it ain't as distant They cold, ain't right I mean menacing is clearer Every word, pull a trigger I see them, they hit me Ain't just me, feel the pain Psychology, let us hate Ironically, seal our fate In the end, we all bleed Dichotomy, should we change Lobotomy, change your brain I can't pretend that I know what we all need but I can't say to God that I'm worth it I cant say I'll show up to service Subliminal messaging A clinical exorcist I've done made a mess of this Or that's what I'm made to think I cant say to God that I'm worth it I cant say I'll show up to service Subliminal messaging A clinical exorcist I've done made a mess of this Or that's what I'm made to think That's what I'm made to think That's what I'm made to think That's what I'm made to think That's what I'm made to think