Tryna Be Sad

I get ungrateful when I'm anxious and depressed But I promise I'm not tryna be sad I don't really sleep at night Way too much is on mind I spend hours tryna balance Expectations, patience, wasting time While left and right Everybody's got some free advice All this noise, a thousand voices Hit like poison, they're destroying mine And I keep praying for a way out of this hole I can't take it, medication can't control it No cause I get ungrateful when I'm anxious and depressed But I promise I'm not tryna be sad I feel ashamed when people say I should feel blessed Cause I promise I'm not tryna be sad I don't really think things through Yet over-thinking's all I do I spend days just contemplating Conversations that I can't undo And I can't breathe, all eyes on me, can I let go And I can scream but no one seems to hear at all, no I get ungrateful when I'm anxious and depressed But I promise I'm not tryna be sad I feel ashamed when people say I should feel blessed Cause I promise I'm not tryna be sad And I I I promise I'm not tryna be sad And I I I promise I'm not tryna be sad I get ungrateful when I'm anxious and depressed But I promise I'm not tryna be sad I get ungrateful when I'm anxious and depressed But I promise I'm not tryna be sad I feel ashamed when people say I should feel blessed Cause I promise I'm not tryna be sad I get ungrateful when I'm anxious and depressed But I promise I'm not tryna be sad I feel ashamed when people say I should feel blessed Cause I promise I'm not tryna be sad