Leave the Ground

I've found that I can be a bit complacent It's prolly cause I'm scared of making changes Consistency valued over contentment Realize I've got a good thing once I'm passed it Most the time I go about shit the wrong way Overreact make people think I'm crazy Catastrophizing driven by my anxiety Disassociating might not make it through another day I don't know what I'll find If we don't stay together and I just keep on wasting all of my time You were like an excuse that could justify me doing this with my life Now I'm sipping some wine And I'll do one more line Just to try and forget all the time that I wasted with you in my life I always want to leave the ground Just don't like the shit I've found Never have to come back down I always want to leave the ground Looking for a better round Never have to come back down Im done with losing It's time for choosing A route that leads me down a better road I hate self loathing But I just don't know how I can find myself without you anymore I'm fucking up I'm done with love No I don't want to feel like this again for sure But I'm afraid to go Just too afraid to go Some sentimental bullshit always got me feeling down I'm bout to try a seance ask my dad to help me now Keep chasing smoke in mirrors need advice from my ghost town Just hoping they can hear me maybe turn my world around Try going through Life without you I'm tryna find a way I can be better too A better me Wish that was true I'm disillusioned bout my place now without you I always want to leave the ground Just don't like the shit I found Never have to come back down I always want to leave the ground Just don't like the shit I found Never have to come back down