Dadebt

I don't wanna disappointment you I can't think of a fate with a darker twist And I don't know what my dad felt When he held my little self in his arms like this But I gotta believe, in that moment Somehow his heart was just as open Must've been opened I don't know when it closed But I know what it costs And I paid that shit I'm doing everything I can Just to save you from paying for my retardations The best thing I can do for you Is clean the slate Make a space for Wild blood, An open sky And rounded edges I don't wanna miss a moment I wanna document every word and every feature I'm trying to witness all this growing I'm kinda jealous of your daycare teachers But, well it's delicate dance (don't I know it) Don't wanna hold you back; just hold your hand I love to hold your hand And if I hold you just right Maybe you could feel held your whole life I'm doing everything I can Just to save you from paying for my retardations I've been so slow to smell my patterns And taste the cost of all my faults and all my anger My biggest hope for you, my son Is just shelter from the traumas of my generation The best thing I can do for you Is clean the slate Make a space for Wild blood, An open sky And rounded edges I won't be perfect Not quite the man that I wanted to be But I'll show you courage Wearing my heart on my sleeve I will always be curious about you (I don't wanna disappoint you) And I'll always be singing your praise (I don't wanna disappoint you) If you ever get sick of your father (I don't wanna disappoint you) I will be at your door just the same (I can't think of a fate with a darker twist)