Privacy

You don’t want to sneak into her phone when she’s in the bathroom And you don’t wanna see those texts sent to that ex-boyfriend (Oh, the fucking irony) You’re gonna throw up in your mouth if you gotta act like nothing happened Now stand up, you’re gonna lose your shit if you sit in this moment You know why? 'Cause that’s just pride in your throat Yeah that’s not love in your gut That’s just your ego You should’ve left this alone, no no You feel played ‘cause a minute ago she had her tongue in your ear But she’s been making plans with him to have “the best RUFF in ten years” You get split by the dissonance: she just said she loves you but she told him the same And now you gotta learn to hold both of these truths in your runaway brain That’s just pride in your throat Yeah, that’s not love in your gut That’s just your ego, ego You’ve gotta let this one go Yeah, the broken heart is a sponge It doesn’t know what it wants It just needs an ego, ego It just wants to feel hope, feel hope The cut is deep because it contradicts the story that you told yourself: Here you thought she left you in a leap of faith Not the safe and native arms of someone else And you’ll never know how long that this shit was going on Maybe you were just an in-between These are just some of the blessings that come from disrespecting lover’s privacy You start to feel as if she’s not grieving with you—she’s just consoling you And despite her best intention, she only makes you feel less connected But don’t close up Don’t distrust Don’t try to force it or control it Gotta sit with the ugly Sit with not knowing Sit with the rejection Anger helps you leave but it’s not real growth It’s just pride making you choke Yeah, that’s not love twisting your gut That’s just your ego, ego You’ve got to let this one go Love is not a racing pulse Yeah that’s just shame or lust That’s just your ego, ego Yeah, love is when you let this girl go The broken heart is a sponge It doesn’t know what it wants It just needs an ego, ego It just wants to feel whole again