what are you..?

Are you a gift or a curse, I don't know but I know that you, that you hurt me the worst Are you a, are you a, are you a gift or a curse, I don't know but I know that you hurt me the worst I don't know but I know I want nobody else, I need you to myself You ain't good for my health, I don't care, I'll just look for some help I don't ever talk at all, I just bottle up my thoughts, lock them all in a vault Never ever see the light, never even see the stars Why you always wanna fight, I just wanna be yours At the bottom of this bottle there's a key and it leads to my thoughts Let me drink, let me drink and I'll tell you them all Let me think, all I think is that it's all my fault When you leave, when you try, all I do is bawl And I beg for you back and I beg you to call Can we please just talk, don't leave me on seen Tell me what's in your heart, don't speak with your mind Tell me all that's inside, I apologize cause I don't want you gone, if so ill die I know you hate when I complain I know you hate when all I say is I'll be different And I'll change but all I do is stay the same Are you a gift or a curse? I don't know, just put me in a hurse I don't wanna live a life if it isn't with her I don't wanna live a lie, are you my girl I've been crying all night, stains on my white shirt Are you a gift or a curse? I don't know, said I love you first Never did that before but I see your worth And all I want is for us to work