Unlikely/Lovely

Hey let me ask you something I mean like you can't answer cause this is a song But like you know, think about it Have you ever been to like a club or like any kind of public gathering And like, you wanna talk to people, but you can't cause you're too self-conscious You're like, you overthink it? I don't know Well, this is what it's like It's unlikely What's unlikely? But it's lovely What are you talking about? Only slightly Huh? Just above me Oh no! I'm on a tight leash Like a dog? Feeling ugly You're not ugly! Cause I'm thinking to myself that it'd be better if I stopped Riding on this carousel but it won't ever let me off, uh Lived my whole life and I know it wasn't likely I should be hyped, yeah I should be going hyphy But instead I lived it thinking it was tryna spite me Cause I focused on the times where I was slighted even slightly I never took it lightly and I couldn't put it nicely Why does it always feel like everybody's doing everything I wanna do But when I try to join the party then my mind'll keeps me tight leash Well I guess the dumber you are the less of a bummer you are The less trouble you'll run into getting love at the bar Am I only one this awkward? prolly some of you are And also no I'm not the smartest, prolly none of us are But I be marching to the rhythm from the drum in my heart Steady putting all this blood, sweat, and cum in my bars There's no need to throw a fit, don't pull a gun at the bar I've been waiting for nirvana, come as you are, uh It's unlikely you love me And that bites cause you're lovely It ain't like me to be bubbly, ohh no And sometimes I think I might leap But I dry heave and my spine leaves And I retreat it's the tiny things I won't go for But when life leaves and time's up What'll I leave when I'm done Did I make the most of all I was bestowed Well when the time comes I guess I'll see But I stay chasing pipe dreams I'll skate by my fantasies, so close It's unlikely you love me Cause unlike me you're lovely Just let the beat ride a bit. Yeah that's funky It's unlikely but it's lovely Only slightly just above me I'm on a tight leash feeling ugly Cause I'm thinking to myself that it'd be better if I stopped Riding on this carousel but it won't ever let me off, uh Lived my whole life and I know it wasn't likely I should be hyped, yeah I should be going hyphy But instead I lived it thinking it was tryna spite me Cause I focused on the times I was slighted even slightly But that's not a very good way to live life, you know My path hanging in a fragile little balance I was never so balanced I had a serving of a swerving evolving throughout my ballad I was never deserving of having residence in a palace I was steady concerned with finding evidence I was valid I tried to get a grip like birds with fish in their talons I try not to be so negative like electrons that are valence I may have made some blunders but I don't mean any malice And you're a wonderland to an Alice so share all your talents Luckily I am lovely like damn I'd f*ck me like trust me i rub with my hand But I fucked me by constantly kicking the can Down the road till I trusted like f*ck it I can I picked up a cam I bought me a mic This shit wasn't like me i changed up my life Nothing was likely the chances were high That some random event would just f*ck up the vibe So when you sit down to consider all that's possible there's no limit Cause every little thing can make the biggest difference That's the butterfly effect and it's a sin to pimp it Like will our doors be butterfly or nonexistent Stomach getting butterflies when I make an entrance Cause if I say the wrong thing it could get twisted But we gotta stay optimistic cause it's hard living Knowing that you had a shot but then you missed it