it'll pass (feat. cuddlegoon)

Only notice seasons passing when the clocks have changed Maybe we can hash it out, I've got a lot to say Nothing like a chokehold; pills in piles I grasp With a drunken high and vocal fry to heal a violent past Terrified of cars at speeds faster than the stars that bleed Glowing like the mark that keeps its place as faded scar on cheek Different from the ones I made, hidden as my arms in sleeves "It'll pass", another day with limbs that look like cars were keyed It'll pass, it'll pass, it'll pass As your plane is passing over, in the dark I breathe Nicotine or any little thing that sends me off to sleep Pretend that everything that's messy's just an awful dream I found it hard to breathe when I first saw you again The notes that I had written on paper were now written on my skin Your eyes looked like broken glass, reformed to perfect spheres Once broken but repaired, I saw them whispering "I missed what I left here," I had capsized in retrospect Swallowed whole by the unforgiving seas You were a Jesus, walking on the water I was sitting on the sea floor, wondering who that could be I have fallen, faltered, I was flying through the sky like I was Icarus, but my wax wings were melting long before I even began to take flight My heart was on fire, I fought the flames with all my might But when the flames extinguished by the waves crashing around me I saw you there, coming to my rescue Years passed by me in an instant I saw you every day, either through passing or just by closing my eyes I don't know how I was so blind, how I missed it, or why I didn't see it before Why was I not something more I drown myself by reliving the past Nothing is holding me here, why can I not go back I don't feel like the person I was anymore Breathing feels so useless, I fade to black