New Sadness

Scared to think of who you imagine me to be Self destruct Can't feel loved Can't believe Anymore I can't get close enough to hurt you I fail To be Enough For you How can I care for you If you don't let me try It would be a miracle If I did something right I can't make you look at me No matter how I try I'm alone when I'm with you I can't do anything right I try To find a Reason for this New sadness Just stop Overthinking For once in my life Broken on my knees Cut myself on shattered dreams Bleeding me out This has beaten me Filled my life with sudden grief Taken my breath Maybe it's just me Predisposed to be lonely I know this It's time for a change Maybe I can never change Maybe I want to feel this way