Worthy

Sometimes I just feel like I'm not worth anything at all.. and let me tell you, it's the worst feeling I'm my own biggest enemy I struggle with letting myself free Never appreciating myself Constant comparisons to everybody else My heart heavy with instances of the same theme The appearance others are living my dream Trying so hard just to fall on my face Makes me question my perseverance in this race Self-diagnostics Feeling psychotic It is so evident Why these thoughts, they are so prevalent Am I worthy Yet? My past darker than I can admit Am I worthy Yet? At times I wish I didn't exist Am I worthy Yet? Or do I need scars on my wrist? Will I be worthy then? Will I be worthy then? I'm ashamed to look in the mirror My self hatred couldn't be anymore clearer Who's to blame for these bouts of inferiority It's all my fault, I doubt my own superiority I'm carrying too much baggage, too much I wish I could be the whole package, the whole package But why set myself up for self-sabotage I just sit behind the scenes like camouflage Self-diagnostics, self-diagnostics Feeling psychotic, oh I’m feeling so psychotic It is so evident, it is so evident Why these thoughts, they are so prevalent Am I worthy Yet? My past darker than I can admit Am I worthy Yet? At times I wish I didn't exist Am I worthy Yet? Or do I need scars on my wrist? Will I be worthy then? Will I be worthy then? Am I worthy Yet? My past darker than I can admit Am I worthy Yet? At times I wish I didn't exist Am I worthy Yet? Or do I need scars on my wrist? Will I be worthy then? Will I be worthy then? Asking others' approval Every attempt so futile Against myself, I'm too crucial So emotional, so unusual Am I worthy Yet? My past darker than I can admit Am I worthy Yet? At times I wish I didn't exist Am I worthy Yet? Or do I have to lie in a casket? To be worthy To be worthy