Cry Alone

My mind is blown, sipping from styrofoams as I cry alone Driving home, thinking bout problems & how my time is gone So many tears I cried over the years Stuck in the rain, I'm just hoping it clears Get this off of my chest, this life shit starting to causing me stress To solve it the best, put me inside a coffin to rest I'm sick & tired of all these rainy days Asking the Lord to take my pain away, but I'm feeling like that I can't be saved August of 2013, I can't forget, remember I told'cha About my problems and how I got this fucking chip on my shoulder You was laying in yo death bed listening, giving me closure Talking to God about'cha sins & how you finna get closer & I can't believe you lied to me Say you wouldn't leave, but you did, that's when my eyes got weak I cried to sleep, you just don't know how much I tried for weeks To find some peace, for the people that you left behind, besides the streets I smile to hide the pain, can't let nobody witness me crying I bought a strap to stay alive, cause I can't picture me dying Even tho my life is weird, I'm tired of living, I'm trying & yo use to be niggas, jive, they the envies kind Just had a talk with Shon, she on the phone shedding tears how she lost her son & the funeral it's gone cost some funds Every since the cash came, I really thought it'll get rid of all my past pain Montrell this shit sad mane My mind is blown, sipping from styrofoams as I cry alone Driving home, thinking bout problems & how my time is gone So many tears I cried over the years Stuck in the rain, I'm just hoping it clears Get this off of my chest, this life shit starting to causing me stress To solve it the best, put me inside a coffin to rest I'm sick & tired of all these rainy days Asking the Lord to take my pain away, but I'm feeling like that I can't be saved Plus Lil Ray just lost his Trell brother too, he told me he saw it I'm crying cause I feel his pain, this shit emotionally scarred Two days before video shoot, thuggin', rolling cigars Now his brother up in the sky with wings focus on God Mane missing his poppa, I know this life shit steady giving him problems Suicidal, I'm on a mission to stop him & my mama gave birth to twins But sometimes I wanna be gone, but I refuse to die & let my mama hurt again Feel like my past starting to catching up to me Hit TP Outdoors with 300 & invest in some bullets Cant wait until a nigga try me & guessing I'm rookie I'ma stamp'em & shoot his bitch yo in the chest if she looking Been dead inside for a long time & nobody cared, don't cry at my funeral You boys wasn't gone ride as usual This my window pain, I'm steady asking when this shit gone change Tryna talk to cousin, he too busy sniffing cain My mind is blown, sipping from styrofoams as I cry alone Driving home, thinking bout problems & how my time is gone So many tears I cried over the years Stuck in the rain, I'm just hoping it clears Get this off of my chest, this life shit starting to causing me stress To solve it the best, put me inside a coffin to rest I'm sick & tired of all these rainy days Asking the Lord to take my pain away, but I'm feeling like that I can't be saved I can't fucking believe it, you dead & gone & finally up there with Teezy Can't question God but shid it must be a reason People cussing & screaming, praying that you make it while you rushing & bleeding To the hospital, by the time you made it wasn't no breathing This for Cee The Carter, NuNu steady crying tears like why you leave ya daughter & ya son gone be just like ya prolly even harder Feel like the hood curse Losing my niggas every two years just make the hood worse Falling tears & sad faces when we thank about'cha Tryna figure out how the f*ck that we gone bang without'cha Looking at my peers like this shit just hard to believe Tried to hold my tears, but I wear my heart on my sleeve You slung iron on front line & even done time Stayed humble through rainy days until the sun shined Graveyard jail cell is what us young nigga facing Forever bang GC, BTB & Young Nigga Nation My mind is blown, sipping from styrofoams as I cry alone Driving home, thinking bout problems & how my time is gone So many tears I cried over the years Stuck in the rain, I'm just hoping it clears Get this off of my chest, this life shit starting to causing me stress To solve it the best, put me inside a coffin to rest I'm sick & tired of all these rainy days Asking the Lord to take my pain away, but I'm feeling like that I can't be saved