What's Expected

They've been (they've been) Waiting (waiting) But I'm just trying to get to saying (saying) How much (how much) I hate it (I hate it) Here I am right back on my shit (back on my shit) I've been conforming to what's expected of me Do you know I'm alive? 'Cause it's a blessing to be No point to this life if it's done effortlessly They asleep, body sandwiched 'tween the bed and the sheets I've been conforming to what's expected of me Do you know I'm alive? 'Cause it's a blessing to be No point to this life if it's done effortlessly They asleep, body sandwiched 'tween the bed and the sheets Do you even know I'm alive? How could you not I'm too alive, I can't dead it I can't stop I don't give a f*ck, get what I want and then I drop I'm a social vulture, let it decompose and rot Because my time is just too valuable My words are in bold and every letter a capital Like it's motherfucking doomsday But I play it casual, my last day on earth I'mma try and get some vaginal I'mma try for a basket-full with a bow on the handle I'mma f*ck up a friendship and leave connection dismantled I'mma do some dumb shit and set a terrible example For Scarlett, the hardest person to abandon An anvil is sitting on my chest, it's caving in my flesh And now more than ever, no emotion to express If there's emotion on my face, I'm definitely possessed Call Peter Venkman and the boys to come clean up the mess I've been conforming to what's expected of me Do you know I'm alive? 'Cause it's a blessing to be No point to this life if it's done effortlessly They asleep, body sandwiched 'tween the bed and the sheets I've been conforming to what's expected of me Do you know I'm alive? 'Cause it's a blessing to be No point to this life if it's done effortlessly They asleep, body sandwiched 'tween the bed and the sheets They addicted to the pillow like it's Zyns for the neck I feel like my life in jeopardy like Alex Trebek I'm not able to breathe, what is suffocation 'till death? "What is low self-worth?" I'll stay complacent I guess My addictions are different Glycogen and sucralose is flowing straight through my system Its a back and forth, a tug of war between gluttony and abstinence I'm doing everything I can just to decrease the friction I'm taking off the rubber and I'm slipping the tip in If this is simulation, then I'm glad that I'm in it Every week claiming I'm a brand new rendition Opportunity whizzing past me and then I just miss it I go pedal to the metal 'fore the keys in ignition Regardless of my efforts, I won't ever be forgiven Regardless of my status as a writer or musician Lead me not into temptation, that's my biggest competition I've been conforming to what's expected of me Do you know I'm alive? 'Cause it's a blessing to be No point to this life if it's done effortlessly They asleep, body sandwiched 'tween the bed and the sheets I've been conforming to what's expected of me Do you know I'm alive? 'Cause it's a blessing to be No point to this life if it's done effortlessly They asleep, body sandwiched 'tween the bed and the sheets