Change

From the jumpy jump Turn the beat up T, turn the beat up in my headphones Look How could anybody look at you and simply walk away I've been trynna wrap my head around the fact that I'm to blame But no matter what I do these things will never stay the same I'm ashamed for feeling guilty that my worlds about to change So when I wake up in the morning I'm feeling a bit distorted I live most of my life like a track that's been pre-recorded Even now there's still a couple of things that I've been getting sorted But I'll always make the time for the things that are most important To think that I am in control when all I wanna do is cry How am I suppose to know if I'm even really alive Through the winter I don't want to do a single thing but hide Give me comfort to remove what has been killing me inside So tell me does it make me selfish for wanting to take a dive Nah It just makes me grateful for being able to strive I'll never throw you aside My love I can never hide I'll bury my pride For those little baby brown eyes I'll be the best that I could be and even though I feel complete It's really difficult for me but I promise l'll never leave See I know how it feels to be alone and cause of what I've seen I'd never wish that type of pain upon another human being You can hate me all you want but I'm just trynna get the truth across This is the most comfortable way that I can truly talk So do not judge me when I tell you that I'm feeling lost I'm just trynna gather all my thoughts and lock them in a box Remember days when I was getting jumped and they would take my socks Pick the homies up with bare feet be creeping down the block Speech impediments I have a slight stutter when I talk Doesn't help my situation when in trouble with the cops Now that I have all this knowledge, I'm suppose to make some progress? How I'm working on it but I still see nothing in my wallet And with everything that's pilling up It make me want to vomit Ima just being honest but I'll never leave and that a promise