Distant (feat. Ron B)

How can I express all the things that I feel When it gets suppressed and they telling me chill I am a mess and I can't even deal This here depression is getting to real I had invested my time enough Into those who regret they done let me go It ain't a question on how I was Whatever you did and said is set in stone Yea we could always forgive Fair enough but we never forget Deep inside yeah it hurt ever since Why do I feel so worthless again (Shit) The damage is done you won You made me tap in the one I've become All of these bandages sums it How do I manage to still love how I love It be so hard to stay mentally focused Damn now I'm starting to picture and notice Go through the motions I'm sick of emotions Guess I got a heart that is meant to be in broken Some situations aren't as easy to see Sit you down wake you out the deepest sleep Lay in my bed as I sit there and think Somehow you gotta get up on your feet Days without sleep and I'm barely eating At anxiety's peak now I'm rarely speaking Nothing prepared me for all of this pain And no one is there to see it I'm downing the bottle While I'm drowning my sorrows And I'm smoking alone Im going full throttle Will I make it tomorrow Shit I don't even know (Aye) Look I'm not the type to admit I'm wrong I just like to write sad songs Too headstrong Then I start to wonder why All my friends either dead or gone It's not a problem though Especially when I have over come all these obstacles Ima let'em know I hope I'm remembered for everything I've done When it's my time to go I'll work it out Bring back to the basics All of the skeletons that be living in my basement I could clean up but I cannot erase it No matter what I do I gotta cover all my bases What is the deal I got one hand on the wheel Other one holding the steel I'll keep it real Don't give a f*ck how you feel Get up go get you a mil You can run it up and decide if you wanna stay Im gonna double it and then I'll give it away Focus on the reason why I been trynna maintain Yeah this shits gotta change I've been feeling real strange No need to be looking for me you know I stay You could find me buried on the East of the Veg In a place where the sun don't shine and the clouds stay gray And it's all fogged up cause it rains all day You might think I'm not with shits Ima empty out the full clip Even when I'm out hanging with my kids Cause that's when I'm the most dangerous Now I'm Downing a bottle And I'm drowning my sorrows I'm smoking alone Im going full throttle Will I make it tomorrow Shit I don't even know (Whoa)