Lost

I’m trynna get you out my system But these symptoms of reminiscing leave no wisdom I think I am in need of assistance I am on a mission I’m just trynna shake the addiction But with my prescriptions I don’t know exactly what I’m missing Everybody now a days they cheating on somebody else I ain’t the type to tie you down bitch I’m the type to tape your legs Dump your body in the trunk catch me cruising by the feds As they gone try and chase me down I’m gonna drive-’em off a ledge I got two things on my mind one is suicide You could run and hide but ain’t nobody leaving here alive No more mr nice guy who is barely getting by I’ll roll a dime in two and hope that it’ll get me through the night See I be broke as f*ck and my car is always breaking down Single father cause I have never been fun to be around Never hit the town cause you know I’m always on a budget You would never catch me in the club even if I wasn’t I let you in and I don’t know what I was thinking Something I could not believe but then it happened for reason Trying to figure out exactly why but I don’t have the slightest clue I guess to teach a lesson and in time I’ll know what to do For now I’ll roll blunt upset suppressing all the memories Until the day that I forget thinking if you remember me I’ll never trust a single soul I don’t wanna leave my home I don’t know I’m why I came but I think it’s better if I go I feel like I cannot escape my own anxiety I tend to zone out cause everybody wanna lie to me This what happens if you do not fit in with society The homie Illah G is Nevada state property And I know people who be posted cross the border That I’ll never see again because the homies got deported That’s how you live you’re either rotting in a cell Or you walk the weathered weary streets thinking you in hell You stupid bitch I give you everything I had Then you threw it all away and now you got me feeling sad Because I really cared about you and I thought you were the one I did everything I could but I guess it wasn’t enough So to cope with the emotions dump the poison in the potion Taking pills and snorting coke until my brain stops working Every single day I’m waking up my lungs are always hurting Cause I smoke a pack a day and that has always been for certain I will always feel the pain that is followed by my anger And it hasn’t gone away that’s how I know I am in danger and I know that something gotta change but I do not know where to start Fall apart right out the door yet I don’t even make it far Go to work unmotivated working hard is overrated Reasons we be congregated cause we under compensated Life is always complicated always make me agitated That’s why I be getting faded cause I’m always aggravated