never-mind.

Over the years, changed what I believed The things I would think The things I said I'd never do Would probably be in disbelief If I spoke of the things I've tried and now I can't undo Although there's lots of good I achieved Secrets occurring In private that they never knew Sorry to all those that I deceived Not my upbringing I was taught to have a different view I'd fight my mind but I Got exhausted I'm tired Been goody goody my whole life Best behavior all the time Never cussed Never smoked Never tried I'd fight my mind 'cause I Got tempted Won't lie Been scared of that my whole life Family addiction on both sides Never drank Never blank Never mind Over the years new trauma on me Changed who I would be I'm not disappointed, just confused The mindset that I had on repeat Hard to admit defeat Hard to say older me excused It's not that I no longer agree It's just now that I see Why others thought the way they do I'm more open to less of extremes Somewhere in between That allows mistakes to be made too I'd fight my mind but I Got exhausted I'm tired Been goody goody my whole life Best behavior all the time Never cussed Never smoked Never tried I'd fight my mind 'cause I Got tempted Won't lie Been scared of that my whole life Family addiction on both sides Never drank Never blank Never mind I once told you if I ever tried Please take it as a sign That somethings isn't right But maybe now thats a lie I once told you if I ever tried Please take it as a sign That somethings isn't right But maybe now thats a lie