When I die

Ink scratched out, I'm not reading these papers Blunts asked out, I'm not switching to vapors Critics talk loud but they're subtly haters Hold my bitch down and I focus on paper Feeling stressed out, shit, I'm riddled with anguish Careful around my thoughts that shit getting too dangerous I Can't feel these shots now don't bring him a chaser I'm Tryna branch out but won't f*ck with my neighbors Purple punch in my lungs, Purple Hearts in my texts Purple Hearts in these raps, purple punch in my tents Outta touch with the world cuz it lost my respect Politicking with the bullshit all I feel is neglect Plug my plug with the money, connect connects for the check I check the sums the shits money and it's good for my neck These are dreams I haven't had yet and that's just what my girl said Never forget when she said that cuz that shit's when my world flipped Man, I've been dreaming in the future but that shit becomes my past Put them seeds in the soil then I turn them shits to ash I guess that's how life goes and that shit got me living fast Don't want it all to pass me by but I cannot live with the fact Life is what you make it but you cannot make it intact There's always something missing and there ain't no looking back You only get one life and that's just all you do with that But when I die I hope it means something so I put my Soul in these raps and this gas in my blunt Put my love in my woman I don't f*ck with no lust Put my faith in my family and my homies I trust Put this money in the oven try to double it up I heard this new rap and this shit ain't sticking up I Feel like fans they getting robbed but their hands they stick em up All this shit pop and I'm broker than f*ck But I hope this shit pop and I move out the hood But f*ck hope, spit lyrical dope, my saliva is opioids Put memories in Polaroids find ambience in spoken noise What am I thinking? Hold up, my third eye blinking I'm too woke, get me lithium and propofol They hoping that like, I'm gone fall Spoken words turn to broken jaws You similar to dental floss, got me picking my teeth Got my bitch sticking with me, my fingers sticky with kief Rip to Juice my life is lucid dreams Change up on the plans like I'm palming the seams I mean laces, f*ck it man who you fucking with? this shit brainless Overdose on hope just like it's painless Paint a Rembrandt if I paint it Kill me now the illest if I ain't it Man I turned satin into satan The games I don't play them I'm chaos I'm mayhem But when I die I hope it means something so I put my Soul in these raps and this gas in my blunt Put my love in my woman I don't f*ck w no lust Put my faith in my family and my homies I trust Put this money in the oven try to double it up