How I Want To

It's been a little while since my pen has hit the page Finally found my way and made it up outta this cage Wasted so much time back and forth inside my brain Thought the liquor'd make it better all it did was warm my veins Went through all the motions Took time to disconnect Picked up on who was there and who didn't even check On the low making moves, putting everything in place Never felt so focused you could see it in my face Put my trust in myself Silenced all the doubt Building from the bottom Don't ever count me out Always had this in me Just never had the means Now I'm always in the lab Never in and out of scenes I've been there, done that I'm a few levels up Top grad in my rap class No need to measure up I done prayed for everything that I'm blessed with now I don't care who's on their way I got next right now I've been in here I've been working But now I'm doing it Doing it how I want to Took patience Some waiting But now I'm doing it Doing it how I want to I've been in here I've been working But now I'm doing it Doing it how I want to Took patience Some waiting But now I'm doing it Doing it how I want to Never been the type to go out and follow trends Never been the one to claim they have a hundred friends The smaller my circle The less I have to lose Everybody here solid I don't have to pick and choose So tired of the fake always tryna come between Always got so much to say but never saying what they mean I put this all together never seeing any blueprints Now they all adding math like I asked for their 2 cents Never hit a switch Just think I found my niche Nobody cared before now they all on my bitch Still watch what I do even when I stay away The more attention gets paid the less attention I pay You know I just do me Give a damn what they think Cause at the end of it all it's gon' be me and my ink I waited so long to be doing this here 2020 may be done but my vision's still clear I've been in here I've been working But now I'm doing it Doing it how I want to Took patience Some waiting But now I'm doing it Doing it how I want to I've been in here I've been working But now I'm doing it Doing it how I want to Took patience Some waiting But now I'm doing it Doing it how I want to