NARCISSIST

Really wasn't gonna touch on this subject at all But there's things heavy on my chest that I have to get off So let me start by saying how I'm fucking disgusted I put myself in the position to let you be trusted Should've seen it from the start the way you slid in my heart The way your eyes and your hands were made to look like art Should be displayed in a museum next to the words you've written Admired from afar because of their condition Now I know you did your best to keep yourself hidden And there were parts I couldn't touch-they were strictly forbidden So I knew from the beginning not to get too attached Then I saw you and reality were completely detached Now I'm burning bridges that were never meant for me to cross You had me on my knees & still nailed me to a cross Flags redder than the sins that fill up all your demons I was looking for a god but not for religious reasons You came off as quite the artist painting pictures I could touch Crazy thing about it was you didn't even own a brush All these plans for a future but you had no intentions Always schemin and plottin looking for the right connections Had me starving for affection like my needs were beneath you That gaslighting was crazy, I really started to believe you Had me questioning myself when I should've known better And now that I know better, I'm already doing better Yet and still I'm ashamed to admit how I was played But you know I'll blame myself for pushing my back into your blade Let's call a spade a spade, not the type to look back Plus with all your fucking baggage, there's no helping you unpack I felt resentment start to grow when you stopped matching energy I had to let you go so I could be a better me Maybe at one point we were exactly what we needed But you chose to do me dirty, look how history repeated