Wonder Sometimes

I try To cleanse the mind Lookin for somethn divine Still wonder if I'm part of that vine A powerful mind But my l eyes blind Blood that's wine Flesh and bread I cry Is this old life really left behind I really wonder sometimes I'm facin me In the mirror I see This flesh Has depths What A lesson to me A image you keep Is a image to delete Inside I scream From this really old me Don't hold on I think strong Use to think wrong Corrupt didn't give two fucks But I lead on I trust God But I fall a lot You will never no How this life will unfold But I'm piecing it together with these nuts and bolts I'm not walking alone My wife is rider with me on this road It's a lot and we know But we fight on Like Tyson Is my mike on These lyrics I punch When my sights on My grind I grind on Like I'm tony hawk But I stay on top Of my game But things change like night and day Some times I isolate Myself from people when I really need time away I believe I tend to think When it's gets hard with anxiety And hard to breathe Something inside of me Knows your right here with me I try To cleanse the mind Lookin for somethn divine Still wonder if I'm part of that vine A powerful mind But my l eyes blind Blood that's wine Flesh and bread I cry Is this old life really left behind I really wonder sometimes Don't count me out Cus I saddle up and I ride it out My pride is out Reputation has bounced I give a dam what's announced Im Out and about I Paddle out To the deep water Where the sharks feed and sink teeth in otters This what I teach my son and daughters It's better to lead than follow It's hard pill to swallow But break my back For my family that's facts Ease to the drama Behind my back they laugh Family doesn't mean there's love No matter what it's really pretty sad This that bullshit I have So I back off and I cut ties You throw me under the bus and then act like Everything's ok when Everything I've done is minimized To myself I ask why I'm scratching head respect I'm positive theres nothing left Pain in the chest From relentless stress Have to have eyes on the back of my head And I look up And i ask what In gods creation is really up What Is going on How they think I'm wrong Took care of them like they were dad and mom