AFRAID

A lot of nights, yeah a lot of nights I'm afraid Feels like more times I be stuck up in my ways yeah I can't turn back from the path that I made no But no lie I just be so afraid sometimes That I may never find No fucking peace of mind To find some peace I'm trying I can't relive my mind Please stress release my mind So much can't leave behind I know in all due time it'll get better Not scared from the stages or lights I'm afraid From the judgement thats comes behind them Be too deep in my thoughts no point to deny them Can't describe them that well then got used to rhyming Not afraid of the love but afraid some might love for the illest reasons Never gave out a blanket when I was freezing But gonna scrap off my plate when a nigga eating Now someone tell me what kind of shit is that Put a hundred percent in and ain't get it back It's this passion that make it hard to relax Once slow up your stride ain't no coming back That's why I keep running and running But at the same time feel I'm running from something Running away from the pain I maintained so I could build up my production Blood, sweat, and tears is what I shed to get close to a new position Of life where my momma gets early pension Where I don't sleep under live ammunition Bullets whizzing they land left a body twitching It's too sad because not many bullets missed them It gets worse to think that someone bound to miss them Too afraid I'll get caught in that deadly system That's the reason my pride won't outweigh my wisdom I'll admit tho that it has before My anger flares up then it over flows Till I break down the wall of this studio Keep working its no way I do not blow When they call up my name I'll be ready though If I'm not ready now then when will I know Stay up through the fear that I undergo A lot of nights, yeah a lot of nights I'm afraid Feels like more times I be stuck up in my ways yeah I can't turn back from the path that I made no But no lies I just be so afraid sometimes That I may never find No fucking peace of mind To find some peace I'm trying I can't relive my mind Please stress release my mind So much can't leave behind I know in all due time it'll get better So please tell me truthfully Would you come through for me If I get too in my head dreaming lucidly I be afraid that I'll lash out brutally If I fall who gonna carry If it ends terribly Can't be replaced I'm mother fucking rarity That's why I cannot be took for no parody F*ck popularity Need solidarity without no strings added on Insomniac I be up until dawn Till I wake up to ten acre lawn Only I know what I made of Failure and lies I'm afraid of Create my own demise I'm afraid of I don't think there's a world where I gave up Where I gave up Yeah Yeah I'm afraid I be stuck in my ways I be stuck in ways sometimes Yeah I be so afraid Yeah I be so afraid