BLACK HEART

And it seems like nowadays I still live with a black heart I can feel it growing blacker I've been trying to find what matters And it seem like nowadays I still live with a black heart I can feel it growing blacker I've been trying to find what matters I don't give a f*ck about anything Don't wanna answer the phone I'ma let it ring In my left ear I hear all the devil screams In my right ear I hear all the angels sing Yeah I gotta black heart And its growing blacker Yeah I got a black heart And its growing blacker Kept emotions locked up for a hundred years Felt like Tupac I've shedded so many tears Seen this pain disappear then it reappears Seen this happen so much now I'm insincere Taking L after L can get damaging Ring bell after bell I be panicking Everybody around me keep vanishing I got too many wounds for the bandaging Like I how do I go from one day talking to my people To the next day they gone Deep inside I was feeling evil while I'm acting peaceful What the f*ck was I on For a second was losing purpose Sacrifices worthless but I had to push on Drain my feelings till all are withdrawn But I'll never shrink down to a pawn And it seems like nowadays I still live with a black heart I can feel it growing blacker I've been trying to find what matters And it seem like nowadays I still live with a black heart I can feel it growing blacker I've been trying to find what matters I don't give a f*ck about anything Don't wanna answer the phone I'ma let it ring In my left ear I hear all the devil screams In my right ear I hear all the angels sing Yeah I gotta black heart And its growing blacker Yeah I got a black heart And its growing blacker Lot of days that I woke up I couldn't find drive to my life so I felt like its meaningless Lot of days that I woke up I didn't want to wake up The infinite sleep was the easiest But I'll never give up or live up to false potential Cuz that comes with the greediness They don't see what I truly do see in this Watching lives fade away it gets tedious You keeping living on they resent you When you dead and gone who gonna miss you Another day goes on they dismiss you Another funeral had to sit through Another birthday viewed from heaven Wishing that we could speak for a second So that I can tell you where I'm headed And how all of my visions well spread I know Emmy watching Know my grandma watching Know my uncles watching from the stairs I'm not with the violence but I can get violent If you speak on my dead I'm prepared I can't leave in silence what the f*ck is silence I'm gonna scream till the world know I'm here I've been living these few years in fear Now I'm ready to sharpen the spear Now I'm ready to sharpen the sword I could care less about the billboards I could care less about the awards Or the things I could later afford Those will come with the victory of war I just want to show my loved ones to better living I know I'll make it happen no time for wishing I just can't leave this earth as victim success in my system