Render Me Helpless

Render me helpless I Tried but can't help it We Lied and it was selfish I'll Die got a death wish Flyer than pilots We might cause a riot They want me to fall But can't knock down a giant Go try it you'll see for yourself I never asked no one for help Giving Support when I need it myself Just lemme die I'm not hiding from death I'll be me till I breathe my last breath I just wanna do my drugs but my girl always tripping Yeah baby i'm a junkie i hope that it kill me When I'm abandoned, drugs are the only thing familiar with me But they Help me to remember that I'm full of raw potential I'm in alignment with everything meant for me Cash i invest & i check my descrepincies the rest is history They gonna remember me, my hustle have em teaching it for centuries One of the best that from the wicked streets that'd I be living in Made a name from the game with no way to beat Come again they don't comprehend what I'm tryna speak Don't care where I'ma go as long as it's not somewhere that I've been before I ain't bringing nobody up ya'll wouldn't do the same for me so f*ck ya'll hoes I got the juice to make it happen but they actually lame & they envy me Bad people bring bad vibes that try to siphon off my energy I keep my Crystal's on me like onyx protected without It I feel like I might just go vomit Nothing left to live for because the good die young Living like I been will have yo ass High strung Might be you just Like me, but still you still hate me girl I hate myself too cause I fucked up your world You a healer I'm a dealer I got heart but it's corrupt & My intentions are good- but I f*ck up everything that I'd touch. I was down for you like nothing mattered stayed thru the shitty days I let you down but don't act like you didn't go & make me feel the same pain. No one deserves the games that we've been playing damn near everyday I don't trip cause it's my karma coming around just make it my way All the blood that I shed the feds should have locked me away in that cage I get irate sometimes for reasons I just can't explain They say I got a chemical imbalance, but that's facts I ain't gonna lie about that Just because I joke and laugh don't mean that I ain't suicidal I'll go and tie a shoestring around this rifle yuhh! "Low you tripping going psycho" Yeah I might grab the mic and shout out to my people in my hometown i know that we hardly speak but it's love that they show me on the low, here and there I said I loved that lil bitch before but it must've been a typo I be capping niggas down tho on the low in the streets. yeah but it never felt right tho You take a lot more than them- yeah but why tho? Look in my eyes lil bitch why you still try to lie tho? yah and you ain't even letting me speak to my kids anymore and it's fucked up tho!