can't seem to change

I've had a boyfriend Since I was 15 And every time they leave so does my personality It's almost if I don't exist Whenever I'm alone 'Cause I don't really care about me just how I come across I go to sleep restfully After a day of sitting still My mind can't keep re reading The emails on my phone He said he'd call the day before I haven't heard since And all I say is I don't care Then pack up all my shit Call me crazy It won't offend me cause its true I'm always scared to be alone out here You don't know me And if it's my say I'll keep it that way Can't seem to change I'm all alone all the time can't seem to find the perfect sign To go outside and live my life I'll be like this Until I die My eyes are sore they're probably square I watch the way my mirror stares There's someone there behind that glare But I can't feel cause they don't care Call me crazy It won't offend me 'cause its true I'm always scared to be alone out here You don't know me And if it's my say I'll keep it that way Can't seem to change Why oh why Why oh why Why can't I