Book of Burdens

I hate to make you wait, pain stemming from mistakes I tried to fix and seal the cracks but it seems every time they break Don't hold your breath the next time I tell you that I will change Blindfold on my face, I'm walking in a straight line down the range The promises I make, lead to problems I create Is it fate, or life's attempt to tell me that our love had drained But I won't buy that for a cent, in my head it didn't make sense Because I know the love we hold poured out my heart and made a stain But will you stay? Or will you be my dying grace I'll work with you through your issues if you help me try to shake All the ones I hold subconsciously and stuck inside my brain Framed dishonesty but constantly I drag myself to sins You can take the book right off the shelf and read what I had did Don't get nervous when the curtains open up chapter six That's when abandonment dug in my brain and I let them dig They built a house, and won't come out, I hear them laugh as they live And there's a rumor that the tumor's from the stress that they give My sins were different, thoughts had shifted from a mild mannered kid To one with sinister convictions, my confessions were shortlisted Baby please stay here to listen, I know both our hearts been twisted Ripped of the trust they've giving And I won't take it lightly when you think about not living I have seen the cause of suicide That bloodstained page on chapter nine is pretty brief but well described The one thing that I couldn't find in my mind is how to describe That look he had inside his eye But I can tell you that the floor felt colder on the day he died I'm hoping that this helps you to visualize and see why My humor's mixed and compromised I ask again through my disguise Will you stay? Will you help me try To turn my chronic lying into your smile And I have seen you cry And I have seen you laugh And I'd prefer it if the former would stay in the past I know I'm the reason why your eyes are red under the mask I will be the one to take our love and stretch it make it last But for me to say forever means forgive my past For me to say forever means forgive my past And I wanna say forever I'll hang onto every letter Every word that you can gather When you look at me and tell me there's no place that you would rather be And I wear my heart on my sleeve But I would rip it off If it meant you wouldn't bleed And I see that you're held captive And I'm in the cell beneath Now how do we escape the prosecution from the free The ones that called us freaks In their parent's eyes The perfect child title they don't need In that throne and on that seat Is where I seek to be But it always seemed to be a misdemeanor out my reach But now we're grown the more I see That our futures you and me Where we go and what we hold Our home will be our masterpiece Our oasis for escaping Where we can both be at peace But for now I guess that is just a dream I get a glimpse of happiness But when it passes I scream I come to grips with my depression But it still has a knee That's laying down on my throat And it makes it harder to breathe And if that is something that you might not wanna read I suggest that you skip over all of chapter 13 And chapter 14 costs a fortune Mix of morphine and greed And I am praying that the Lord will help me write 15 I'm on my knees for the seasons I'm hoping God takes it easy At least sees that I have gone through everything that he needed But I am patiently waiting for when he tells me You got a future to make I gave you love so embrace And to all the pages in my future Clean as a slate I know they won't be filled with hate Cause when I look in your eyes I feel my anger all fade And right now you might feel like your life is stuck on replay But we got a future to get ready for So catch that bouquet I got a book of my life And half of these pages are blank I got a spot for your signature And I just need your name So baby tell me Will you stay