Circles

Feels like I'm runnin' in circles how many hurdles I gotta jump over to murder the part of the beat that I'm workin Like I'm a walkin' cop to a burglar I never holstered the weapon I'm further From gettin' pulled out of under the dirt like I'm holdin' the world together I'm certain It's gonna rip me in half when I'm hurtin' I'm at the center of everything But at the edge of it lookin' in like I'm a perverted enemy Is it the better me? Pathetic entity walkin' around but it's without identity Have I been runnin' this rat race at a bad pace like I'm packed in cement for the past whole eight hours I haven't ate all day and I fade away and I wish the weight that I'm holdin' would be taken off of these shoulders Like a jacket carrying boulders comin' out the chamber when I'm unloaded Hold up strapped in like a crash dummy I'm actin' like I'm a real person Not made of plastic, chipped in cerebral I am systematic, don't fall for all the theatrics Plannin' my tactics all my attacks will be so acrobatic It's like I done studied gymnastics open the book and read that shit If you wanna follow my actions, yeah Hazards will be flashin' Mathers cooked with passion And the plate he put out was tragic for anybody that followed after But I'm tryna be that grill master now passed around like my stake I put in the ground to show you I'm standin' proud of anything I put out, don't need that crowd Abandoned child, left on the ground to grow up and be nothin' but vile Where's my smile? Oh, I left it back in a Russian Walmart aisle But weren't you happy bein' adopted? Yeah, but at a time I was unwanted and that shit haunts me I'm an offspring when suspensions faulty Where's my coffee Wait a minute, I forgot I hate that taste of the ground I've been Put there Too many times like a cold embrace when I'm up, I shake and shiver with a knife I wither with the ice that formed In the heart of a bitter little woman That didn't get that I was doin' what I did cause I am mentally unfit To be in any iteration of a ship, no relation Isolation is the only medication that I know I might be okay with But I'm brained on an ECG, can acclaim that, gotta maintain the insane act Gotta fake smile and a strange laugh, through the pain that I hide in a labyrinth And I'm amazed that I haven't found my way out yet When I dabble in land nav gatherin' everything I need to get out Uninhabit it , leave it barren, but I know that ain't happening Scared that If anyone sees it, embarrassment, will be in my brain and nothing will compare with it Everybody's laughin' with a rope to my wits, find me to a chair and tie me into it So I can't get out And someone's walkin' in my skin like I'm an outfit they could pick And they had pulled me out the closet that I'm hiding in Grown men cryin' when you feed them suffering all on my tray eat it up it's nothing big Matter of fact, better get the chef to bring another in Doubling all of my portions, shoveling it down, now I'm forcing All of it to stay no choices, eat the fork, two more courses That I'm drivin' on like a track to avoid this noise like an engine Roar feel it in the core Tightenin' a little more Turn a four cylinder into a Porsche on the track when the chord is added And the heartbeat gettin' rapid, now the blood is flowing Pupils dilated when you fathom how far you would go When You can really learn to spasm out all over on the mic in a brazen fashion So don't delay the passion, you better be embracing it Makin' it magic, cause I have done mechanic But I've also been a man that was branded out by Uncle Sam But maybe this is my new chance to introduce who I am