Stained

I know I might play like I Got it all figured out The way that I stand like I am living above my doubts But temptations calling Gravity's not pulling me Down So will you be my Anchor Wanna see her but I ain't gonna make her Knowing that I'm not the one that should be filled with anger When making mistakes woven in my nature But if I can't change for her I'm worried, that Maybe I can't On the last stand, on the last chance Cut at the Knees but the blade in my own hands When will I learn From my own actions Breaking the glass don't only cause fractures And when you try to put it back It's only a fraction of what it was But even stained glass is Perfect When the light hits on the right surface I know I never earned it Trust is a match and I burned it Ready for round two same verdict I tried to swim out to you But don't worry I won't make it I can't change currents that I made Cuz I made them It's my wave and it's time that I face it All the trepidation is what I run away from Cuz I don't know what I'm capable of And I don't wanna fake all the love When I know that it's there But Inside I might think that you're making it up Cuz I'm not worth it You could pick anyone else up off of this earth and find what worth is How certain are you That you wanna pursue life with me Usually doesn't end well But I promise to stay honest Long as you help me harness Problems Keep them locked and I'll be your solace I know I might play like I Got it all figured out The way that I stand like I am living above my doubts But temptations calling Gravity's not pulling me Down So will you be my Guide When the road gets rocky I might say that I'm fine, but you know that I'm not And I'm not knocking, on the door to get help cuz I'm cocky Sayin' I got this, I don't got this I'm dropping to my knees Cuz I'm losing myself in the thoughts That have brought me here When it all would haunt me Tears for the trust that I faulted I'm just not what I wanted To be for you and it's awful The pain and the sorrow I know that I brought you I feel it too But I'm more disappointed Knowing I avoided Ways to fix it before it Became more than it Should have been if I just listened To the people telling me to ignore it But that voice It's screaming Telling me what and when I need it I feed it, I feel it eating away at me I'm bleeding, leaving parts of me depleting All I am is fleeting But when you're here I feel I'm completed Please help me get rid of my demons I see you saying You're not a mistake And I'll stay Give me your hands and I'll teach you to pray Be the man I know you can be and live in the promise you make When you wake everyday The challenge you face'll be dead weight Think of me and you'll be safe I know that I might play like I Got it all figured out The way I stand like I am living above my doubts But I can't