Who You Knew (Radio Edit)

You knew my name but not my story You see my smile not my pain You notice cuts but not my scars Beneath this shell I'm not the same You knew my name but didn't know my story You see my smile not my pain You notice cuts but not my scars beneath the shell I'm not the same I tried to learn to deal with the intentional torment By raising rent, but they would pay it never late with a cent Got more intense with time my mind entwined in every sentence And led my head to fend off every thought I had against it I call that self defense I take a breath and hold it deeper when I make amends Cuz I don't owe a breath to anyone who wasn't there or my friend And so I hold it in Yeah I would suffocate before I stay the same again You knew my name in school but you didn't know I'd play the game And play to win You kept your distance That's okay Cuz everyone who talked behind my back would never know the pain Half the grade would stand up And be claiming that they were so close to me But I didn't see a face when I lost faith in everything I'd seen And questioning the way I breath Like why do I do it if I am nothing But known locally as weird A little awkward and stocky A sloppy artist now, possibly Kamikazed his confidence cuz he got nothin off of it If he's competent He'll stop but I wouldn't bet on it nah Cuz I'm not lettin off the pedal Till the pedal is gone And what's a riddle mean to me if I would question it all You knew my name but not my story I am the reflection of the damned Water washed the footsteps in my sand When I walk I'm pacing out my plan Outlined in chalk so when I expand I can erase it and color more space in and be inna place Where I'm feeling famous I don't need to be but its feeling amazing The realization my way to escape Is to cover the pages with what I made and put in a cadence And cover the beat with the bass Hitting a homer and running the plates Triple A nah I'm in majors But Why is it so wrong to want a better life A chance to finally give back to people that had made mine Didn't give me money but attention and time When I die I know that they'll be standing there with me at their side I wanna give my family more Not think about what I can't afford Not rent not bills not grocery stores Not having a kid I can't support When I have em they're gon be my world My map my atlas and my moral Compass From this They're gon grow my love it's Somethin you won't be able to stomach And no one is able to take it from us I created my own summit That's a climb I'll gladly take The Everest of my own faith The reverent for what I made Malevolent from hell I've paid To pave the path and now I'm saved And now I'm gracious for mistakes I've made Embrace em Like their family The clarity of humanity Is there for you don't stare at me You knew my name But not my story You see my smile Not my pain You notice cuts But not the scars Beneath the shell I'm not the same I'm just hiding beneath lies Fake persona that I describe Just another way that I feel I'm drifting in this tide Bye