Things You Chose Not to See (But Should Have)

Costco sales rep, I don’t do shit I sign checks 7 hour down time, course she spends it online Never once been proud of anything, never told mom That you’ll never guess what I did today at work, I really earned this dime Boyfriend works in sound design, travels a lot Got his spot through nepotism but don’t you bring that up There’s consequences waiting Behind the till it’s grating No skills get integrated Inventory, good, next 120 items checked Reality sucks and her mind is ready for assignment Diagnosis PDD then secret trips to pharmacy A lively buzz a charming glee Inside world gets energy Even while under the influence she can just go through the motions And nobody notices Sort of a simple psycho-somatic esque episode Barely sees SO, desires no yes no, high low stress though Cointreau in the dress pocket binging Anything that’s real – cringing Voices start to rise – twinging Fear on which your life is hinging You were taken You were kidnapped (Turn your life around) Body-snatched Don’t be running (Put your life in the ground) Voices inside will tell you Noises are here for real Make you feel like a failure Make me a make-believe Set you against me Before you end up in rainbows And don’t say goodbye to me Before you’re in a straitjacket Before you can only sleep With benzodiazepines I never lied or faked it You are the world to me I promised we would make it I said what I believed Voices inside are mean